Woow! ha ha ha kinda awkward saying something when ya been gone like 4eva! xD man where to begin. well, first of all i cant type worth crap when i've been texting 100 times a day with my new phone. its not black, its just a newer version of my phone when mine got wasted xD yeah my old phone was like that.. <_< >_> haa lol still a razor LG, its the silver kind....... that my ex boyfriend has.. >.< lol but hey, mines newer! XD ive change alot sine i was on here from day one. my hair grew past my shoulders and my bangs go past my chin. my hair gets annoyingly fluffy at times! >_< i straighten it and show whos boss! lol let me seee.. *ponders* since Feb. 7th i've had my.. what 2nd or 3rd boyfriend? lol im lucky dat this one is much nicer than my last *rolls her eyes* men these days lol iv'e learned alot since then *sigh* but my BF now makes me happy and is taking me to the prom June 6th! lol i haven't found the right dress just yet. im a much different size than Sept. 22nd of my oldest brothers wedding of last year lol that brides maid dress is BLLEEHH!!!! it sags on me and is too short for a long dress and i was the tallest one there!!! woman are soooo small these days! it makes me look bad at times cuz it makes me a freak that has to slouch a little bit just to fit in lol nauh, im no freak tho. only on Friday and Saturday nights lol another thing thats changed is my personality! im not shy anymore! i can tell u straight up what i kno, how i feel, who i am, and what u r! but im not mean! <3 im still sweet and innocent (at times) > w > it would be more festive on MySpace to leave a blog or what not lol i dont have one yet. i'll be sure tho to make one right away. oh, the way i draw has changed a little. i've come patient on how to draw people now like portrates. drawn some of that of which im proud of ^_^ anime is doing ok, need to build digitally on that, which i haven't had the time or 80% of how lazy i am =_= lol i havent watched Saturday night anime shows in a while cuz i was too tired too cuz of school and family and friends. figured i could wait to STILL get the internet at my house to watch some. i'm going to try to put up some new pics of me some how off my phone which doesnt have internet access cuz my grandma took it off..... *>.<* well, i cant be so sure that i'll be on like this everyday. but from today and sunday has been my Spring Break lol kinda weird for some if u cuz u already had it but last week i took my exams which were a pain! so next week is back to work o-o meep lol atleast im relaxing in my black night gown and red and black kimono! haahaaaa! livin the good life lol k dudes, keep it chill'n! laterz

as u can see i haven't been on l8ly and its stressful 4 me to get on cuz i dont have the internet at my house only at my grandmas and i only visit my grandmas on weekends lol damn there has been alot going on >.<''' it sux i practically live on the internet lol i do alot of AIM when i get the chance. i do ALOT of texting lol if u want my number, just ask and hopefully ya have Verison cuz i do lol maybe i will be creating a myspace soon lol yes i dont have one but w/e. i've always been against sites like that but might as well join cuz EVEYBODY is doing it! XDDDDD LOL like i give a fuck what ppl do, its what i do that matters! lol so ya, i've been busy doing school stuff and of course the teenaged drama lol yes yes, i have too much of that and it seems i start it somehow but luckly it doesnt envolve my "girly" friends just my "guy" friends lol ya, its the worst eva! haha damn well, i dunno that shit is just confusing. ever since i changed this year i've been hit on and asked out sooooo many times! i swear its not funny cuz it makes me guilty for all the guys i've already turned down. i just want that ooooooone guy, ya kno? *sigh* mmhmmm i really just want the internet cuz it'll help out alot for school work like assignments and projects and research lol and of course socializing. i'd love a laptop right about now lol get all nerdified with that :B lolzorz. i have joined a japanese club which is kinda cool lol i stay after school every thursday. and i take another language, german lol ya, sehr gut. im still learning and i gotta lot to go. my 2 most fave languages <333 yay! lol oh, i have been doing very well in drawing anime and of the sort lol im going into digital programs and hopefilly be working with Photoshop CS2 and a tablet, which would be much easier ^__^ and my 2nd oldest brother wants to make a video game and my other bro will tag along and so will i cuz im the artistic one =^^= hopefully that will go well. i've already had my birthday and ON my birthday... umm.. it wasnt what i had expected and it just.. ruined everything... but i did get some gifts i guess lol not really what i wanted. but most appreciated ^____^ what i really want to do is make a whole new DA account and post all my recent pics as well as my art work but i guess i'll work on that some other time. well, ya wont be hearing from me anytime soon, tho i wish lol

PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARTY ON!

ya well, my internet connection at my house is totally fucked up. gone forever it might seem *sigh* so im at my grandmas house yet again using her emachines dial up computer lol TT 3 TT i miss my fast and easy wireless connection at my house TTTT_____TTTT meh.... and i could get on imvu like all the time from morning to night but of course for the most part i cant... but i can only send messeges if this computer would let me lol the worst part about have'n this slow internet is that......there are ...tooo many white pages @_____@ *SIGH* my gwad! i've killed off waay too many brain cells to work with this computer lol so thats y my bro brought along his pc but that doesnt have internet access but u can play great games on it. my point is to that XD i tend to switch the CPUs and play on that all the time cause i cant stand this computer! my media player has nuuuuu good songs! and i haveta connect with AOL Radio and most of the time on there it glitches so im like..the hell with that! but ahhh if ya ever want to see my imvu page, here it is [link] and if u can read my message on there, i explain the same problem lol but ya, i'm staying over at my grandmas for a while and then i haveta get back to my house cause of my friend wanting to spend time with me lol (ya i know, im teh uberness XD) hahaha anyways i'll just crash over at her place (which is next door to mine lawl) and we'll just use her internet and what not. plus we're gonna try connecting our DS's to her grandpas internet (which is a DELL with AOL internet) it should work i mean..i should have done that a long time ago but i have come to realize that a DS can connect to the internet and u can play free games and chat to anyone around the world.. ya im pretty slowness on that but i've figured it out now and im gonna try XD

well i'll catch u kids later then! XD remember....

PARTY ON!!!!

ey all! yuuuuperz it summer alright! im sure most of ya r gonna be busy this summer cause or else it wouldnt be called a 'summer' for nothin XD im gonna do a little bit this summer, not like the last summers me and my family have been out of state and so forth. yah, fun but when i was little it HAD to be educational...period. but then again we try to have fun its not too bad lol the only thing i havent traveled in is a regular old train or one of those carribean boats lol ive traveled by planes, cars, fairies (the boat), subways, just the little stuff, u know. btw me or my family isnt rich but my grandma does have the money and she has supported this family from head to toe. oh oh oh! i got seasons passes to Busch Gardens! yeey! im not all that thrilled about water country cause...hmmm well, i dont like all the ppl >___> yahh. but i LOVE the rides at Busch Gardens! i mean, who doesnt? sometimes girls, u gotta scream but that means ur have'n fun, not cause ur scared lol its the THRILL that get u going but yah, hopefully i might go a couple times cause its free and all..hope my family HAS that time to go. my goals for this summer is to get a deep tan and to hopefully slim down. i cant say i wanted to loose weight cause i have'ta fit into my dress for my brothers wedding thats comming up in september ^__^ haha, my first wedding and i get to be in it! saweeeet! so me, and my (going to be) sister-in-law are going to hang out at the end of this month to sun bed tan and all that jazz. yah, many of u are thinking hmm does she like her? yah, i do, shes pretty cool and shes gonna be the closes to ever haveing a sister i ever had ^^ cause u know, i have 3 brothers and all. mmhhmm. and do u know what!? she lost bout 15 pounds in less that 3 weeks just by working ALOT! i mean sooo much that she said that all she did was do alot of lifting and stuff around the house and alot of outside work. i was like...= . =' sure u did.... lol but anyway ^^ im also gonna do other stuff this summer, hopefully and that i might be away for a while but i'll see yal later

remember.... PARTY ON!! and oh, be safe lol

i'm just gonna just say a couple of stuff so i can be on my way lol (forget those couple of words XD i actually said too much )
i went to a friends house one weekend, actually it is this person -> XD next time i crash with her i'm gonna help her out on DA cause she cant figure out how to post pics and stuff up nothin like helpin a friend out and save'n myself from karma haha doin good things, good things will happen thats my nindo ^^ lol but i'm lazy on the fact that..helping others that dont need to be helped is a bitch =_= i mean, come on! pull ur own weight! stop hanging on others for ur own work. but hey, u gotta love life and life sux lol "its eventually gonna get better", ppl say lol well we can say back "u have the easy road! life comes at ya with pluffy pink pillows while ours are freak'n sharp ass knives and we either gotta take the hit or dodge them!" haha anywho, summers around the corner ^^ well, hope its gonna be fun..cause ahh...i reeeaaally have nothing planed XD well, atleast i wanna go to ta beach and stay in a condo with a saweet pool like i did last summer. the main thing i really would die for is to go boogie boarding. i loooove boogie boarding! soooo much freak'n fun! XD i'd look soo killer in my new bikini top blue and green short shorts bathe'n suit lol XDDDD sayin that cracks me up lol. like that itsy bitsy tiny winnie yellow poko dot bikini XD but i like mine better cause i rock! haha hhhhmmmmmmm startin back up on my old habits of play'n video games but i'm still work'n on other things too. which evens out the old habits now does it? XD but im still a gamer, a lazy one at that *yawns* oh yeah, i also hope that i'm get'n better on my art works too ^^ i'm sooo glad i signed up for graphic art and design class, i'm sooooooooooo tired of take'n the same old art class. never learn shit in there. unless it'll be that anime after school (activity) class i'm sign'n up fer. lol i'm gonna work my butt off next year. go back to have'n As and Bs. i showed up ta ppl that looked up to me cause i was so smart lol with all these new friends and bore'n work i gotta do for school, well no wonder ppl just dont do well like me lol i used to study (not) but i used to do my homework right when i got home from school. all i do is head for the computer and like AIM with someone lol i dunno y but..yeah thats pretty much what i do....pretty pathetic lol i rather play video games. or atleast to atempt to study or do any work of the sort that involves learning..which i dont do lol (anymore XD) sux that theres a down fall to life and ya just gotta pick yourself back up. more like over and over and over again. but we all make mistakes and we resolve them ^^ it also sux when somethings true and u take it a different way. more like...not understanding, but it must depend on the problem. .....u know what really pisses me off...? well, i'm not gonna spill it out now cause i'll save it for another journal entry. cause i've already said a mouth full of nothing in this one haha


well PARTY ON!!! laterz dudez! rock on! lol